A Summer Poem (RJD #14)

Beach gazing: Nantucket, Ma

 My RJD offering for you today friends, will be a Summer Treat. 
I often write poems in my journals then forget about them. 
Poetry is just a way I express myself, I suppose. 
It kind of just comes, so I submit myself to the pen and let it flow. 
I forgot all about this little ditty I jotted down in the early days.
1997 was the year that God really began speaking to me, 
or perhaps when I finally was willing to obey.
 Or at least try. For better or worse.
I felt like I could hear Him all the time, everywhere. 
I stole away with Him often. 
It was the Honeymoon time of my faith...

This is pretty raw. Unedited.
As you can see!

I Have Felt His Presence

and faraway
and every day...
[present, now, especially today]
O magnificent Ocean
You are but a drop of water
held within His hand
[Behold His glory]
Every sparkling glimmer dancing upon the sand
[Look closely]
I have seen His glorious work!
But where sand meets sea
is where He anointed me...
Splendid and beautiful place
He has chosen His merciful grace
as a gift imparted to me...
My Lord blesses me
here by the sea
I seek His grace and loving-kindness
He kisses me with Sun and warmth
Caresses me with a gentle breeze
He embraces me with His loving light
Heals me with salty air
and cleanses me with 
His foamy, 
green waters and righteousness
of whom shall I compare?
None I dare.
Praise Be To God
I see His glory in every hue of blue 
of the sky
and wonder why
He would choose me
from the land
as part of His unfolding plan. 

July 24, 1997- October 8, 1997

My heart, AND open book! ;)

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The Dance

I see you dancing before me, my sweet girl. 
Completely free. 
Those early days you felt unhindered. 
Confident. Innocent. 
I see me, seeing you. 
Free, satisfied. What joy in my heart. 
I birthed beauty. 
A mystery. Beyond words. 
It breaks me in half, tears me in two. 
Often choices that never beckoned me, shriek out from the sidelines. 
Referees in my mind offering up rules, regulations, penalties. 
We learn together this parent-child relationship. 
Awkward like steps to a dance, unknown. Stepping on toes, tears. 
Frustrating moments and laughter, too. 
The desire to stomp out. 
Still stronger the longing to stay, and master each moment. 
Pressed close.
This dance...

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Five Minute Friday

Random Journal Day Link Up #14

Welcome to Random Journal Day! 

OK, I realize for some reason I mess up RJD by 
spelling it RDJ by accident! Sorry!

Some RDJ news:
If you check out the LINKS tab at the top of my blog you will find our 
Random Journal Day Home base
This was to help others easily find a description as well 
as archive all of our RDJ Link Ups in one place!
Feel free to send anyone 
who might be interested there- Enjoy!

Thank you all for taking part and sharing. 
Susie and I are so grateful for each of you being willing to 
open up your hearts and journals here with us.
I hope you are enjoying it!
It really has been a wonderful blessing for us.


Link up your journal post when you can anytime during the week.
Check out the other journal links and 
be sure to leave some feedback.
I look forward to digging in my stack and sharing, 
and also peeking into your journal pages!

 REMEMBER to Link your post back to this URL directly
so others may find us and participate!
(just click on the title of this post and link that to your RDJ entry)
If you have a any questions contact us (Dawn and Susie) through e-mail:

Rules, Schmules...but here they are : 

1. Dig out one of your old journals, or a recent journal. 
Choose an entry, or a portion of an entry that you feel bold enough or at least comfortable to share. 
We prefer if you could include a picture of your journal if possible!

2. Write up your blog post, publish and link up here.
Link up the blog post you are sharing, NOT your general Blog address- so we can visit your entry. 
We don't have a Badge for this Blog yet, but if you just link back to this in your post that will work (Random Journal Day Weekend Link Up) You can use Susie's RDJ Photo if you like!

3. Kindly visit and comment on the person before or after you in the link up. 
You can visit more but we understand that everyone is busy.
 Please visit at least one other Random Journal Day Link Up as that just would make it nice for all.

We look forward to peeking in your journals!

*This Link will start on Friday and go through the week. Link up anytime before the next Friday (Thursday night when I get around to it)


Lessons, Insights And Concluding Thoughts: The Bloggers Prayer Project

The one concern of the devil is to keep Christians from praying. 
He fears nothing from prayerless studies,
 prayerless work and prayerless religion.
He laughs at our toil, 
mocks our wisdom, 
but trembles when we pray.
~Samuel Chadwick

Well this concluding post seems a bit overdue. But nonetheless, here it is. 

I know that we as Christian Bloggers pray. 
I mean, after all that's what Christians do, right? 
I mean, Jesus intercedes for us and is our example, so as sure as I'm breathing, 
alive and following Him I am praying for others. 
But life is busy and distracting. 
Can I get an "Amen"?
When I realized how many bloggers I was actually following, my heart was stirred. 
It had been on my heart to be more purposeful in praying. 
I like to plan strategies and goals in my spiritual life- it must be the Personal Trainer in me.
 (Don't ask about my own physical fitness as of late though, puhleeze!)
I decided to make a "plan of action" and enlist 
anyone else who was interested
to join me. This had both selfish and unselfish motives. (?)
I thought others might really have a heart for this- 
and felt nudging to invite them and trust God for that.
I also knew, if I did not incorporate the accountability 
(even just knowing that others had committed to doing this) 
it would be easy to ...well, let's just say- get sidetracked. 
I am an expert "Sidetracker" with too many ideas in my brain.
I need a little reigning in at times. 
And accountability. 
(Don't hold me to that.) 

Well, I set the ambitious 31 Day Challenge and two others committed to join me.

Many of you joined in with praying as we went and I thank you for doing so.
I know many of you pray for your fellow bloggers but this was more of 
a purposeful commitment challenge.
Trust me, it got challenging.

If you want to see the enemy move in, as well as your own fleshly, natural  tendency to resist God's will despite "good intentions" just go ahead and decide you want to pray faithfully for anyone- or do anything for the glory of God. 

The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak
Matthew 26:41

But guess who is bigger, badder, better, fighting for us and on and by our side?
Our Man, God and King,
who gets all the Glory because He is worthy:

Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised—who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us.
Romans 8:34

The way I decided to tackle this, after creating the initial list, was to pick a scripture passage to reflect and then springboard  off, writing out a prayer based on what I read and from what I know about the blogger. I would then send it via e-mail to them. 

I decided against a blog post devoted to the blogger because I was afraid it would become about me and making a post more than a prayer before God. I just know my tendencies and weakness, although initially I wanted to do that- after praying, I knew that was not the way God wanted me do do it for the above stated reasons.

The other thing I did was to just put a shout out on my Facebook page with a link to the Blog site and name of the blogger I was praying for to invite others to lift them up with me. 

For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.
Matthew 18:20

Honestly, it was a true challenge to meet this 31 days of praying for just one blogger a day-
Purposefully, focused and in a way that I wanted to invite God  to lead, direct and guide.

I finished a week late.
I sometimes found it difficult to focus, and would put it off until later, 
then was battling fatigue.

You know friends, the enemy does not want you or I to pray.

If you commit to pray,
 prepare yourself for a battle.

Because it is God's first line of defense and call to action.

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Ephesians 6:12

"No one is a firmer believer in the power of prayer than the devil; 
not that he practices it, but he suffers from it."
Guy H. King 

"The greatest tragedy of life is not unanswered prayer, but unoffered prayer."
F.B. Meyer 

I want to offer a special thank you to Melanie from Only A Breath who
 graciously created and gave freely our beautiful badge/button!

I will attempt The Bloggers Prayer Project again and invite you to link.It will be different then last time and I think more realistic and user friendly! We can cover the Blogosphere in prayer together, friends! One blogger at a time!

My office closet doors with name prompts of Bloggers for Round 1!


Minus One

Image Credit: Keoni Cabral 

I wonder if
it would be easier
for them to see

darkness, like fog rolls in
consuming thoughts-

I almost see the gates of hell
no, all the lords and princes
parade over me victorious

and I stop caring

consumed by the current darkness
stopped hearing

soul pierced, bleeding, silenced
walls don't weep
physical pain is more inviting
than this wicked assault

foolish me, caught again
or has he grown more indubitable in the battle-
knows my weakness,
my failure,
my shadows.

catches me.

I wonder if they would see
Him better 
without me
minus one
a better chance

than zero

what if I quit

I thought rage died and there it is alive
baring it's teeth and I 

because at least
it feels better than hopelessness.

I can't help but think that three minus one might 
be better for me,

in the battle
so why not
be set free

enemies on every side
but when home becomes
a battle ground
dry, clay 
cracked open,
 claim staked
leaving all

he pitched his tent, 
right there among them
slipped right in,
 like poison Kool-Aid,
has taken them captive

why does the guard sleep?
lets them all walk away 
with the booty
minus one

Battle weary-
all alone,
she lay
praying til 
the light of day
begging Him  
take her away
 on the wings of morning 
rush right into
arms that 
are willing and open,
overjoyed at the sight of her
welcomed with
an embrace
in place
of the 
dry, and weary land,
a place where 
there is a river...
and promises that never fail.

could three possibly
be better off

minus one?

I wrote two poems this week. 
One dark and one light.
So to speak. 
Poetry is about the present moment and authenticity.
That's why I like it.
It's nakedness.
Some people are afraid to get naked  (honest) 
about their feelings and thoughts.
Not me.
Keepin' it real.
God prefers me that way 
and can handle it.
Can you?

Appreciate you dropping in,
 but I decided to turn the comments off for this one. 
Go on and share some comment love with another, OK?

 What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.
Philippians 3:8-10

Poetry Link over at this wonderful place w/Brian Miller and friends! 


Ashley's Eyes

Today we took Ashley to the vet. 
She has been having a tough time. 
She has some health issues.
She is a lady and asked me not to disclose the details.
Earlier this year she was shaved. 
She had mixed feelings about this despite the fact 
her family seemed ...amused.
She has since forgiven us.
And her fur did grow back.
The vet said she is doing well!

Please don't hate me for using words....

How's Your Heart?

“He who is not contented with what he has,
would not be contented with what he would like to have.”

Do you know the condition of your heart?

Have you ever considered it?
I am not talking about the physical health of your heart,
for we know that our lives
consist of more than the physical.
But I ask you to consider your heart.

Do you think you are able to judge the heart of another?

The LORD does not look at the things man looks at.
 Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.
1 Samuel 16:7

Are you aware of the reality that your heart is not to be trusted;
 or do you believe the words whispered from the world with it's empty promises?
I did.

The heart is deceitful above all things
and beyond cure.
Who can understand it?

 “I the LORD search the heart
and examine the mind,
to reward a man according to his conduct,
according to what his deeds deserve.”
Jeremiah 17:9 & 10

When you are alone, can you be still and at peace?

Jesus said:
Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me.
John 14:1

Do you know that your heart needs to be guarded?
Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life.
Proverbs 4:23 

What is the condition of your heart?

What do your words reveal about the condition of it?

The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in his heart, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in his heart. For out of the overflow of his heart his mouth speaks.
Luke 6:45

Do you think that there is something better "out there", around the corner, in your neighbors house?

But godliness with contentment is great gain.
For we brought nothing into the world,
and we can take nothing out of it.
But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that.
1 Timothy 6:6-7

Content: satisfied with what one is or has; not wanting anything else.
Grateful: warmly or deeply appreciative of kindness or benefits received; thankful.

When we find our contentment in the Lord, we discover we have a grateful heart.

If you did not receive ONE more thing from God, one more blessing,
gift, provision, answered prayer-
Could you be satisfied?

Are you satisfied with Him?
I pray your answer is Yes.
He is enough.

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
Psalm 23:1

‘“The LORD bless you
and keep you;
the LORD make his face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
the LORD turn his face toward you
and give you peace.”’
Numbers 6:24-26

Jesus and the Lamb by Katherine Brown

“He is a wise man who does not grieve for the things which he has not,
but rejoices for those which he has.”



Looking Back From Monday

OK, so around here on Mondays I serve up a smorgasbord of randoms starting with with Carissa @ Lowercase Letters for Miscellany Monday. Next, I'll spoon out some creativity or inspiration with Ramona @ Create With Joy's Inspire Me Monday. Lastly I'll wrap it all up with sweet gifts of thanksgiving, onward to a journey of 1000 gifts counted with Ann @ A Holy Experience: Multitudes On Monday. 
So now you know.
 Let's get in with it!

My Randoms for this week:

Last week I was Interviewed by Author Marja Meijers.
Marja blogs at Fresh Insights On Ancient Truths.
Seriously, I feel so blessed to have had this opportunity and it was such
an unexpected but great exercise for me! Marja is such a wonderful writer I was honored and
grateful that she considered me for this interview. (OK, honest engine- I was scared at first, too.
My first thought was "Hey, I like to ask the questions, not be asked"!)
Marja, made it easy, covered my thoughts on writing, blogging and fitness as well as edited me lovely!
I am hoping to turn the tables and interview her in time for the release of her next book called
"My Neighbor's House". 

Quick Quips from My Girl:

Me: Let me get a picture of you...
My Girl: No- Mom, you can't put my pictures on Facebook or your blog.
Me: Sweetie, I gave birth to you...of course I can.

My Girl: Mom, do you get any money for having these on your blog (pointing to my sidebar)?
Me: No, sweetie. I just believe in and support these people/causes.
My Girl: Well, how about your Fitness Blog? You should at least be having advertising on that one.
Me: Well, honey, that blog does not see much action because I don't spend much time working on it.
My Girl: You need to GET working on that. And get some advertisers. 

Susie over at Recovering Church Lady has nominated me for this award. I like that it means "Beloved" in German. Least that's what Susie said. So apparently there are some rules that accompany this "award". I certainly do not want to be ungrateful for such thoughtfulness so I will play by the rules. 
Here are the rules that accompany this award:
1. If you are nominated and accept it, then you have won!
2. Thank the person who nominated you by linking back to their blog.
3. Nominate 5 blogs with less than 200 Followers.
4. Let the nominees know by leaving a comment on their blog.
5. Add the award image to your site.
So I would like to pass this award to these Beloveds:
Cecelia @ Following My King
 Toni @ Lakeside Lessons
Carolyn @ a word about words
Regina @ Teach Me the Ancient Paths


this was all the creativity I could muster...
sorry Ramona!

I made this on a hot day when it was too hot to be crafty!

I did manage to get this shot from my beach day Thursday,
while the Narragansett Regatta was going on:
Took this pic with my phone, but I love that we have these sailboats
racing by while we enjoy our beach time. America's Cup Race and The Tall Ships
within the next two weeks...so exciting in our small state. 

I finished The Bloggers Prayer Project this week and 
will be sharing about it in a post but need a bit more time to clarify my thoughts. 

***You matter to me***
I really appreciate all of my readers, friends and visitors in the Blogosphere but am finding it increasingly hard to squeeze it all in (blog visits, reading and replies) in the Summer months. Please be patient with me as I hope to keep up as best as I can.
I am spending less time on the 'puta, and scheduling posts more often, and  I am not replying regularly. Something on your mind? Shoot me an e-mail.

Bountiful Gifts All...

218. Barbie and Nikki, partners in prayer 219. perfect pork "rub" tonight thanks to my honey 220. beach day friends who love Jesus, sunny and perfect 221. VBS weekend 222. Evan 223. rocks, seaweed, shells, sand 224. Point Judith mornings 225. Overcoming evil with good 226. people praying for me 227. prayer for My Girl  228. Peanut Butter and Jelly 229. Jesus conversations 230. His faithfulness to my unfaithfulness: my example...Lord, help me to do likewise.

miscellany monday at lowercase letters


But, God

 Celebrate God all day, every day.
 I mean, revel in him! 
Make it as clear as you can to all you meet 
that you're on their side, 
working with them 
and not against them. 
Help them see that the Master is about to arrive.
 He could show up any minute!
Philippians 4:6-8

I have been carrying this verse around in my heart and head all week.
Is is any surprise that I have come under extreme enemy attack?
Surrounded by such beauty, in stark contrast to the ugliness that parades itself 
and exalts itself against Him in this world.
I am staying close to Him but it has been challenging.
When the enemy closes in with his cronies, he brings
discouragement, accusation, distraction and ambush.

But, God...
 also works together on our side. 
Surrounding us with great beauty and reminders of His love and faithfulness. 

Don't fret or worry. 
Instead of worrying, pray.
 Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, 
letting God know your concerns.
 Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, 
everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. 
It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry 
at the center of your life.

Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; 
the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse...

 Do that, and God, 

who makes everything work together, 

will work you into his most 

excellent harmonies.

Philippians 4:6-9 

(The Message)

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Beach Baby (RDJ #13)

8 month old Katherine with me on Narragansett Beach.
I couldn't resist taking a different route today, as I perused my journal. 
I am doing a double duty share today!
I came across the entry (brief and light!) about my daughter's first  full fledged beach outing.
As someone who used to grab her beach towel, journal (of course) and one measly beach bag- I was shocked by how much work it was as a new, first time mom to have a simple day at the beach!

I had also scrap-booked this in her baby album so I figured I would 
share that as well! Kind of gives an "In front" and "Behind the scenes" perspective! 

Thankfully, I had Kat's "Fairy Godmother" and super experienced, PRO-Mom, 
Sandy (pictured on right side of lay out) to help and teach me the ropes
of beach going with baby! 

You know writing when she was young sometimes meant brief entries.
I actually have a few where I fell asleep writing.
The pen just sort of trails off.

The joys of motherhood!

I have another share from this same journal that is a bit deeper, 
I will share it next link-up or the week after!
But I thought a light, fun, Summer entry might be a refreshing change of pace.

A quote I recorded and saved a few pages away.

Happy Journal-ling!


Breaking Free From Approval Addiction

I have a confession to make. 
I am a "People Pleaser",
and it can be rather bothersome at times.
 I really want to be liked and accepted.
I want to be able to say with Sally Field,
"You like me, you really like me".
However, life is not an awards ceremony and ultimately
people pleasing is a rather exhausting and frustrating activity.

 The good news is, I am in recovery

The bad news is, sometimes I relapse.
The best news is God loves me anyway AND
 "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me"!

Now don't get all preachy on me,
I know I am supposed to want to please only God.

 But I have three things (last count) working against me and 
I sometimes don't recognize them, at least right away.
 They are the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes and the pride of life.
They are common to all of us who believe.
All sin will fall into one of those categories at its root.

Fortunately, Jesus supplies us with all we need to do battle with all three.

First of all, He laid down His life to gain our freedom and give us victory over sin and death.

Then, He gives us our Spiritual Armour, His Holy Spirit, grace for the journey and friends in our faith.
He lives to intercede for us and never abandons us.

So how is it we, or I, still manage to find myself entangled in sin?
 "The devil made me do it", is not something that a believer really can say.
The book of James tells us it's our own desires that lead us astray.
 Jesus has severed the puppet strings which Satan held on any believer who calls on His name in faith.
So it goes back to the big three.
All three are involved in the area of people pleasing.
In it's most subtle way it can lead us off God's path for our lives as well as impact
 His will in the work He is doing in the lives of others.
 It can busy us with activities that are not in accordance with His Ephesians 2:10 "good works"  prepared in advance for us to do.
 It leads to discouragement with self, others and at times, those we want to please most!
So how can we avoid the "PP" in our lives?
Well, I will say we follow the One who came to lead the way.
We pray, confess, and bring it into the light.
Darkness and light are incompatible.
Sharing our struggles with another brings light and keeps the enemy from making mincemeat
out of we little sheep!
That being said, remember that pleasing people is a by-product (sometimes) of pleasing God.

He is able to make our enemies at peace with us.
How much more will he allow us to be pleasing to those who
love us anyway and grant us favor with others?

 In the end, knowing that regardless of who likes us or doesn't, 
we are completely accepted, embraced and loved, 
not just "liked" by the One who has given us all we need 
for every good work by the power working in us in Christ Jesus. 

You think about that. 
And be sure to let me know if you like my post. 
Oops, relapse. 
  I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!

Have a God pleasing day, friends!

 Repost: Originally posted as
"Confessions Of A Recovering People Pleaser"

Inspired to revisit, edit and post after this recent post:
To Un-Follow And Un-Friend

Linking with Laura at Beholding Glory for Faith Filled Friday:
Beholding Glory