Then I saw heaven opened, and behold, a white horse! The one sitting on it is called Faithful and True, and in righteousness he judges and makes war.
Whatsoever things are true...
I was just thinking that how sometimes the things that make me desire truth, crave true - are the things that are not so lovely. I was pondering while I waited tonight for pictures to download, just sitting, enjoying the still that comes in the quietness of waiting moments. Oddly, I was thinking how much I need others.
What I realized, and have always known, behind the curtain, as I peeked through, is that I always believed I was nothing. Because when you have had your boundaries crossed, voice silenced and truth denied to your face, you become nothing. You buy the lie and think it must be true. And maybe that is the hardest thing to overcome-this nothingness you believe you are, this one consuming lie. Or perhaps the hardest thing to overcome when you believe you are nothing is the desire to make yourself something.
The desire to be something, someone - drives to extremes and I have tasted it like- salty tears rolling down damp cheeks. I have felt that measured meting out of enough, that never satisfies, is never really enough.
But He satisfies.
The one thing I come back to again and again, is Him. Him. The one whose name is True. This one whose name sets free, completes, embraces my nothingness and breathes life, love, truth into my wounded places and settles my restless heart.
Whatsoever things are true...are the things I want to return to, because the fact is, the things that are not true, the lies, the unlovely, will remain-yet we behold His glory, are transformed by His grace.
And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.
2 Corinthians 3:18
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