4.18.2013

On Those Days It's Hard To Hang On

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But Christ is faithful as the Son over God's house. And we are his house, if indeed we hold firmly to our confidence and the hope in which we glory.
Hebrews 3:6

I'm surrounded by unpacked bags in my office. They sit, along with a good part of my to do list ignored, awaiting a bit of attention from me. In my free time, I sit and stare blankly, semi-paralyzed considering the lists that grow longer as my capacity to complete tasks grows more impossible...with every passing moment. I wonder why I return to this place, again and again.

 It's the place of Overwhelmed. It's not God's place for me any more than the desert was for a bunch of wandering Israelites...and yet it is His classroom as it was for my sweet, Jewish, faith forerunners. I learn much from them, I confess. I read and re-read the story and History of Israel and I see myself more clearly, through His eyes. Am humbled by His mercy and wonder at His wrath. Am sick with the beauty and pain of it. The pure unadulterated truth that is being muffled daily by those who call themselves intellectual, enlightened, knowledgeable. 

I can't watch a drop of news because my chest swells, and I can't breathe and I feel Jesus weep within me. Not to mention I am waging war with enemies within and without of my own small circle of love. The battle to hang on spiritually, emotionally, mentally...wages on. Hanging on and victoriously living are two different things. Don't you dare point a finger because suffering is promised my friend, along with victory. My stomach turns, and I hang on. Hope swells larger than my pride, and lingers long. It never leaves me...it never leaves you who cling to His hope.

I hang on to this hope.
Especially on those days it's hard to hang on.
Even today. 


And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.
Romans 5:5


What do you cling to on those days it's hard to hang on? 


5 comments:

  1. Hanging on with you dear girl. Breath deep and let HIM help you let go. Where have I heard those words about 'letting go' before? Layer by layer and step by step He is renewing you! Love you Dawn.

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  2. Hang in there, hanging with you.

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  3. Dawn-thank you for sharing your honest heart filled journey...your words bring me back to HOPE...that is the one thing that anchors my soul to Jesus! Love ya-Kel

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  4. Dawn,

    I hear truth here, and hope, and beautiful honesty. Thank you.

    Jennifer Dougan
    www.jenniferdougan.com

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  5. On difficult days I now call out Jesus name. No one hears me, but I know Jesus hears and sees me. He know what I'm going through each day. I trust Him to take care of me.

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