Then I pray to you, O Lord.
I say, “You are my place of refuge.
You are all I really want in life.
I remember standing in the bookstore that Summer's evening. I was feeling vulnerable. Only as a women does. Delicate, melancholic. Yes, I confess I remember it well as I perused the shelves for my next journal, pouring over each one as I do. Opening and closing, feeling, sensing. Knowing it will be my partner for the next few months; a receptacle for my heart's cries, dialogues with God and hatchery for thoughts, dreams and ideas. So for 8.95, a bargain in my eyes at the time, I made the final decision and headed out into the nights darkness, new journal in my possession. I loved the image on the front. Writing the first pages in a new journal can be the hardest, yes? I see this beautiful open, blank paged canvas and think to myself, "How can I measure up to the possibility, potential and perfection of this book? The moment I touch it with my pen, it's soiled beyond repair!" Yet, I have learned to scribble out my imperfection onto the pages of a blank book and found the process to hold beauty, mystery, healing and grace as well as a secret meeting place with the One who has put the very desire to write and record in my heart!
July 19, 2005
Dear Lord, I am sick of my sin and tired of my self. Lord, renew my Spirit with your joy, peace and love. Show me your ways. Lord, even when I think I have victory- I stumble- even when I triumph it's only for a moment.
Please keep me from fears and increase my faith according to your word that I might once more exalt your name with a vision from heaven. Spare me empty words and godless chatter-empower me Lord, to serve You.
You alone I long to worship, you alone are worthy of my praise.
I also lift up Katherine and her heart toward you. Lord, her heart I pray would soften. Lord, I pray for protection and that she would grow up and walk in your truth and not depart from it.
Lord, I am overwhelmed with people, places, things. .. the will and agendas of others and my own desires...Lord give me wisdom & discernment to know what to I can do...should do... and what can wait. Show me what to leave behind and what to keep.
*I went on to pray for my husband, VBS and our finances.
Funny the things that we remember and forget...and what we record.
Funny how some things seem to be ongoing heart cries...
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